Une Fille Allumée: Week 25 - YET YOU THINK WE'RE THE SAME THE SKYYYLINE FAAAALLLSS AS I TRYYY TO MAKE SENSE OF IT ALLLLLL I TRY TO LEARN ALL OF YOUR SECRETS BUT TURNS OUT THERESSSSS MOREEEEE

Apart of my divine nature is being emo, I've decided

This email is like when all you have in the fridge is leftovers so you throw it all in a pan and call it food btw

On Friday I had a dream that was a reality check and I was like dang

In short, I'm trying to enjoy right now

I've had a wack dream like everyday this week

God always seems to take us back to square one, and it's probably because we're not even supposed to leave square one in the first place

Yeah so I gave a talk on Sunday-LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT IT!! Because you know, all week I was like MAN, gotta give this talk in French, gonna look like a fool, WHATEVA. But you know, I kept my head up and was like actually there's literally no WRONG way to do this, because I'm doing my best. (I did not believe that)

So come Sunday I'm like okay okay let's do this. Except I wasn't even done writing my talk. I was in the church parking lot Google translating sentences about backpacking cus the French language doesn't really have works for backpacking. I was scribbling out words I'd never seen before, then I quickly went inside and eventually gave my talk. All was well, then I got to the part that I google translated and had to read. And OH MAN. I had to read the word "rythme". So it's the same word in French. Except with French pronunciation. Which was apparently impossible for me. I LITERALLY COULD NOT READ THAT DANG WORD. so I just stopped, looked up at everyone, and said "I don't know how to say it, it's R-Y-T-H-M-E" and then just waited. After a few seconds, people started shouting the word, and I heard it most clear from a guy on the stand behind me said "Rythme" and I said " yes, that!" and pointed to him and everyone laughed. So I said "when I do that, you know what I mean" as I pointed at him. So I was like okay okay good. I kept reading, but then THE NEXT SENTENCE HAD THE WORD AGAIN!!!! So when I got to the word, I didn't say it, I just pointed at the guy, and everyone BUSTED UP LAUGHING. And I was like okay this is cool. Then there was another word that the congregation helped me with, and it was all fun and games, then I ended and sat down

and then elder Nawahine stood up and gave his talk in PERFECT French! And I was kinda like dang, It would be nice if I could just easily speak French like that, that's all I was worried about all week! Sigh

But then It hit me and I was like wait... It's BECAUSE the French was a bit rough that I was able to make that fun moment with the branch!

But even more! I guess the French wasn't too rough cus afterwards, some people were saying very nice things to me about it =)

POINT IS!!!

I learned there really IS no wrong way to do something (within limits) ! We're always gonna have a strength and a weakness when we face something, and righteous always beats evil. Satan wants you to focus on the weakness so that you won't even put up your strength against the weakness, because the strength will win. And he doesn't want that. But you know what? Sometimes you just gotta let that weakness be exposed so that the strength can do its thing.

One line from my talk

Our role as children of God is not to save ourselves. Because that's not possible. Our role is to follow the one who saves us; to follow our Savior.

So yeah, do that

Cool area president of the 70 guy or something like that did a devotional for this mission (elder Brent h Nielson), he did it on Barbados and all us islands zoom called in. Very good! His wife was the powerful speaker of the whole thing. Differences do not equal not red flags

Honestly I want to jump in this ocean that's in front of me the hop out and lay in the sun and listen to Leith Ross but instead I'm being forced to listen to David freaking Archuleta every day of my life

I didn't really talk about friends in this email, but that's kinda cus we're still trying to figure out if our friends ACTUALLY believe. Because EVERY ONE here is like "yeah it's the truth! I believe!" but it's just cus they will believe anything that has to do w Christ, they don't actually wanna act on it. Tough

One more "je vous écoute" where they DON'T écouter and I'm out jk

OH LOOK AT HOW CUTE MY VALENTINES DAY OUTFIT WAS!!!!